trying to teach your friend how to ride a bike
So at the beginning of this semester we were supposed to write an “I am poem”. We had to choose two words we thought described ourselves. While most people chose confident and positive words, I chose these two. And at the time when I’d ask people for help with this project some of them would tell me that I shouldn’t think this way about myself and I should just get over my insecurities, but it wasn’t that easy. It never is just that easy to stop thinking so negatively about yourself just because someone says it once, but I’ve had time to think since then. And in that span of time I started to think about all the changes I could make. Both bad and good. I thought about what I could do to make myself feel better, to make myself feel like I finally belonged somewhere for more than just a short period of time. And in this whole process of trying to figure out what I could do, I lost sight of a lot of things. So now I’m trying to fix everything I’ve done wrong. I’m trying to forgive everyone that’s ever hurt me in some way, and in turn I’m hoping they can forgive me as well. Through this journey I hope to accept all my insecurities. I understand it won’t happen within a day, but I know I’ll get there someday. The moral of all this is that if you ever feel like shit because of what someone said once or if it’s been building up inside of you for the past 5 years, know that someone out there loves you for who you are. They love you for all your insecurities, and so should you. I apologize for such a long rant, but I want everyone to know that you are worth it.